a brutally honest post... almost
honestly i had dis all planned out. as in dis update. i was gonna write bout all d happy things or actually bout everything dats been happenin. but to my dismay sum things haf been plaguing my mind d past 2 days. obviously it;s inevitable. wish it wasn't thou. thus this is gonna b one quirky fucked up post.so let's start with feeling a wee bit dumb. i kid. not a wee bit but a heck of a lot. i mean i dun expect to belong to MENSA but i mean it would b NICE if i could b a walking encycopledia much lik Yew Tian hu amazes us wif random facts at d spurr of d moment and often leaves me wif my mouth hanging wayyyy down to God-knows-where. did u noe d average giant squid's length is 30 feet?? i had absolutely no clue. i mean HELLO??? it's d freakin giant squid! it's not like anybody relli cares. but i mean it would b nice to amaze ppl like dat. honestly eventhou i feel dumb being around peeps like Pee, Nit and Y.T, it feels good to actually talk bout sumthin intellectual or at least learnin sum wayy cool fact dat i mite forget in 10 years time. but i mean hu cares?? it definitely beats talkin bout when Britney's gonna get a divorce or why on earth Siti is marryin dat old man! like dat affects our boring routine!WOW!* sarcasm 99*Ostracize. dunno wat it means?? well start expanding ur brain power and look it up in d dictionary. basically it pretty much sums up wat i've been feeling save dis past few days. sure we're all busy and such but i mean we bloddy well shud juz take a step back and smell d friggin roses. * lack of roses juz smell d bloddy bunga raya* in my humble and bitchy opinion, friendships have beem drifting apart one way or anuther. it mite start coz of a boy, unescapable duties or dumb organizations which i mean are such frivolous things dat it pains me to actually think bout d harm it can actually do. COME ON!!! heck we're worth more to each other than sum dumb thing. sure business is business and frenships are frenships. btw i;m not juz talkin bout close frens here which many of u mite assume the minute u read d word friends. but i mean it as in general. besties will soon become close friend, b4 it turns into gud friends, then it becomes merely friends, later d person;'s juz a part of d gang and b4 u noe it u dun even noe when d last time u actually talked to d person was. i dun mean "hey how's life" but talk as in" hey i heard u had a ,...." u noe??d little little details in a friends life dat we dun think matters whether we notice or not. but one little thing u notice is kinda like a sign of reassurance dat hey u noe wat? i still care. even if u wear ure socks in different colours or ure d most popular girl in skool and i';m d nerdiest, complete opposites of d "social circle".many of u prob go wtf becky??? emo much?? but hey it all boys down to everybody having a limit. wta wif rumours goin around dat i;ve been seen holding a gud friend's boyfriend's hand hu so happens to b my "brother". to d cowardly rumour starter: can't u bloddy find sumthin better to do? wat perverse joy do u find in startin dis crazy rumour thus shaking my friendship with dis 2 ppl hu pretty much noe me inside out. even d nasty little flaws. i dun wanna disclose names but u close friends reading dis prob haf an inkling hu i'm talkin bout. and ebing aske dnot to talk to dat particular person is pretty much making me feel ahh.. ostracized!!! i'm an annoying overly-flirty bitch hu talks too much. i get it. i juz want sum1 to tell me hey u noe wat becks?? dis will all b over in a blink of an eye and b4 u noe it everythin will b back as it used to be. and to dat specific sum1... can u do it soon?? coz i'm pretty much goin berserk.wat wif me not being sure whether i'll even b a prefect or not. hey i'm fine wif havin to prove myself and my capabilities but i haf a LIMIT!! seriously!!! apparently i';m not taking dis seriously.. i mean HOW SERIOUS DO YOU WANT ME TO BE??? do u want me walkin around wif dis solemn face cursing at everyone and everything in sight?? know wa?? no can't do!!! i'm used to smiling heck i';m pretty much get restless in a slight second of not doin anythin. thus d constant chatter and walkin around n jumping and shouting. but hey it wasn;t in d job description u had to b sum serious bitch walkin around was it?? heck if it was i'd b the frist one outta there in no time. it;s not dat i dun wanna b a prefect or wat not. but it's like they're being over-judgemental. i do my work juz like everybody else but NOOOO apparently they're doin twice d work i'm doin. which would b wat?? lickin ur ass??? wat d heck la. i've nt given up thou. juz prob not put dat much effort into it. i mean wat;s d point??? get back to me when u haf d answer! When u get what u want in your struggle for self, and the world makes u king for a day,
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself,
and see what that man has to say.
For it isn't your father or mother or wife,
Whose judgement upon you might pass,
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life,
Is the one staring back from the glass.
Some people may think you're a straight-shooting chum,
and call u a wonderful guy.
But the man in the glass says you're only a bum,
if you can't look him straight in the eye.
He's the fellow to please, never mind all d rest,
For he's with you clear up to the end,
and you have passed your most dangerous difficult test,
If the man in the glass is your friend.
You may fool the whole world down your pathway of years,
and get pats on the back as you pass,
But your final reward will be heartache and tears,
if you've cheated d man in the glass.
-Anonymous-
Track of d almost brutally honest post:Jesse McCartney feat Anne Hathaway - Don't go breaking my heartDISCLAIMER:: dis post was written when d blogger was feeling wat she was feeling at specific time, date and place. d blogger would appreciate it if u dun ask her bout it as she'd prob b over it by then. no hard feelings if u've read itand if ure curious or wat not, u may ask d blogger bout it but please dun do it in a confrontational tone or use it against d blogger as d blogger will use dis disclaimer as her defense. thank you and haf a nice day! with much emo-ness and a heck of a lot of bottled up feelings* good or bad i dunno*,BecKy