are we falling or flying.

I love it the way you love your guitar

Thursday, December 21, 2006

I will always love it. don't you get it? it's not the poking or the hot guys or the extra money and "glamour" that comes with it. I JUST LOVE IT!!!

There's nothing wrong with falling in love. I once told a friend that i've never actually fallen in love with someone before. i take it all back. i HAVE fallen in love. but it's not a u-jump-i-jump kinda love. it's a subtle one. one that takes me by surprise after realising the endless depth of this particular love. it encourages addiction. but most of all , it liberates me.

I just came back from a sports camp. made new friends, became a family and most importantly a team. sports camp was kinda like mild intensive training week. training 4 times a day. each session lasting from 1.5-2 hr. there were injuries galore. hamstrings, trapezius, sprained ankles. the works. and as i was packing last night i realized that training everyday is something i WANT to do.

i guess you never really realize your love for something until u take a step back and ponder. that's what i did. and right now i'm at crossroads. at the fork of a road, if u will. one's a path that i have been planning since form 1. the other's a road less taken. the one where i don't get my 10 A1s. the one where i leave everything i know for an experience and opportunity of a lifetime. the one where i turn remp. ;)

i was telling timothy bout it just now. and he asked me what if i lose this sudden abrupt newfound love? i said i'll try to find it again. what i meant to say was. i don't know what's gonna happen if i lose it. i honestly don't know. when that dreaded moment comes, i'll let you know what i'll do. but right now, i'm crazy bout fencing. every bit of it. and right now is all that matters.

Track:
Norah Jones - Turn me ON

Loving it the way you love your guitar,

BecKY