watch me come undone
Friday, August 31, 2007
the weirdest thing happened yesterday.
Soundtrack: The Strokes - Reptilia
Becky
happy 50th love.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
I've been a Malaysian for as long as i can remember. obviously. a typical Malaysian teenager, if i may. what i mean by a typical Malaysian teenager is a Malaysian citizen, aged 13-19, who doesn't give two hoots bout singing the National anthem properly, reciting the Rukun Negara and not forgetting, complaining about our nation's exam-oriented education system, while enjoying a nice cup of teh tarik or teh o' ais limau, whichever you prefer, and watching the EPL on a big plasma screen. yes. typical.
as most of us have already noticed, there has been an overwhelming amount of articles about the struggle towards independence, national unity, la dee da. not to mention the countless people interviewed about our founding father, the late Tunku Abdul Rahman and his oh-so-very-kind soul.
all these articles which have seemingly appeared out of nowhere give a very pathethic impression of the state of the patriotism of the citizens of Malaysia. seriously. we mostly ignore the journey towards independence lest for some small articles throughout the year but come August, everyone suddenly decides to fly the Jalur Gemilang besides showing off the height and the size of their flag which they most probably think shows everyone their immense pride and patriotism. but behind closed doors, they insult our nation's leaders, the education system, the government, the amount of tax they pay and i bet they even insult the way the mamak down the road toss their roti canai. i mean i'm not trying to be sceptical and scrutinse their efforts at trying to be patriotic but c'mon. the Jalur Gemilang only goes up for 3 weeks and by the 3rd of September, you see them taking it down again. where's the sense in that?
but despite all my sceptism, un-patriotic-ism, and whatever other -isms there are, i LOVE Malaysia. i sincerely do. i don't fly a Jalur Gemilang outside my house. I recite the rukun negara reluctantly during morning assembly. I complain endlessly about our exam-orientated syllabus. but in the end, i feel an immense amount of pride, joy and love for our country. think about it. as citizens of a South-east Asian country, comparatively we are very very blessed. we're allowed to consume chewing gum without looking over our shoulders. we don't need to travel to any of our neighbouring countries to work as a labourers. we don't have militants who try to overthrow our government while our Prime Minister is not around. i mean honestly. we hardly have to worry about racial riots. we always have enough to eat. we have the freedom of speech however restricted it may be. as teenagers, our only worries are exams and friends and the whole lot. teenagers in places like Iraq worry about when the next bomb might land on their house and teens in Africa have to tread carefully each time they walk so as not to step on a landmine.
perhaps we have overlooked all the good this land has given us. perhaps we have taken for granted the toils our ancestors had to go through just so you and i can have a cup of teh tarik peacefully. maybe that's why we need those articles about the people of Malaya's struggle for independence. We need to be reminded of their passion, their sorrow, their joy, their faith and ultimately their hope. We need to revisit the times when racism was just a word as everyone joined hands and worked towards a common goal. Tunku the Musical, which is currently playing at KLPAC, ended with a song about how someday we will all be colour blind. somepeople scoffed at the idea of us becoming colour blind. they believe that we will never be colour blind. but i think we're heading in that direction though. seriously. take a look around and you'll see mixed marriages. Chinese with Indians. Indians with Malays. Malays with Chinese. i am a product of these relationships. which means that my mother and father are colour blind. so i pray that that someday will arrive soon. and even if it takes another lifetime for that someday to come, let's remember our ancestor's struggles and not lose hope aye?
a very very blessed Merdeka everyone. here's to another 50 years of peace and prosperity. btw, tune in to hitz.fm. there's a song which is in Malay, Cantonese and Tamil. pretty muhibbah if you ask me! ;)
Soundtrack:- Sudirman - Tanggal 31
Becky
"ngo weng yuin tou hai ma lai si ah tong yan"
as most of us have already noticed, there has been an overwhelming amount of articles about the struggle towards independence, national unity, la dee da. not to mention the countless people interviewed about our founding father, the late Tunku Abdul Rahman and his oh-so-very-kind soul.
all these articles which have seemingly appeared out of nowhere give a very pathethic impression of the state of the patriotism of the citizens of Malaysia. seriously. we mostly ignore the journey towards independence lest for some small articles throughout the year but come August, everyone suddenly decides to fly the Jalur Gemilang besides showing off the height and the size of their flag which they most probably think shows everyone their immense pride and patriotism. but behind closed doors, they insult our nation's leaders, the education system, the government, the amount of tax they pay and i bet they even insult the way the mamak down the road toss their roti canai. i mean i'm not trying to be sceptical and scrutinse their efforts at trying to be patriotic but c'mon. the Jalur Gemilang only goes up for 3 weeks and by the 3rd of September, you see them taking it down again. where's the sense in that?
but despite all my sceptism, un-patriotic-ism, and whatever other -isms there are, i LOVE Malaysia. i sincerely do. i don't fly a Jalur Gemilang outside my house. I recite the rukun negara reluctantly during morning assembly. I complain endlessly about our exam-orientated syllabus. but in the end, i feel an immense amount of pride, joy and love for our country. think about it. as citizens of a South-east Asian country, comparatively we are very very blessed. we're allowed to consume chewing gum without looking over our shoulders. we don't need to travel to any of our neighbouring countries to work as a labourers. we don't have militants who try to overthrow our government while our Prime Minister is not around. i mean honestly. we hardly have to worry about racial riots. we always have enough to eat. we have the freedom of speech however restricted it may be. as teenagers, our only worries are exams and friends and the whole lot. teenagers in places like Iraq worry about when the next bomb might land on their house and teens in Africa have to tread carefully each time they walk so as not to step on a landmine.
perhaps we have overlooked all the good this land has given us. perhaps we have taken for granted the toils our ancestors had to go through just so you and i can have a cup of teh tarik peacefully. maybe that's why we need those articles about the people of Malaya's struggle for independence. We need to be reminded of their passion, their sorrow, their joy, their faith and ultimately their hope. We need to revisit the times when racism was just a word as everyone joined hands and worked towards a common goal. Tunku the Musical, which is currently playing at KLPAC, ended with a song about how someday we will all be colour blind. somepeople scoffed at the idea of us becoming colour blind. they believe that we will never be colour blind. but i think we're heading in that direction though. seriously. take a look around and you'll see mixed marriages. Chinese with Indians. Indians with Malays. Malays with Chinese. i am a product of these relationships. which means that my mother and father are colour blind. so i pray that that someday will arrive soon. and even if it takes another lifetime for that someday to come, let's remember our ancestor's struggles and not lose hope aye?
a very very blessed Merdeka everyone. here's to another 50 years of peace and prosperity. btw, tune in to hitz.fm. there's a song which is in Malay, Cantonese and Tamil. pretty muhibbah if you ask me! ;)
Soundtrack:- Sudirman - Tanggal 31
Becky
"ngo weng yuin tou hai ma lai si ah tong yan"
Miss Halfway
Monday, August 27, 2007
i've been tagged with a super cool tag! heh. don't know how that works but it just does. capiche? ;)
Seven things to be done before my death.
1. Bungee jump.
2. eat grasshoppers, maggot cheese and all those weird food.
3. do the whole nude beach thing. ;)
4. go on a missions trip to Vietnam.
5. attend a polo match, complete with my summer dress and straw brim hat!
6. go on a road trip baby!
7. watch the FIFA world cup finals LIVE. hell yeah.
Seven things I will NOT do even if it kills me.
1. murder.duh
2. purposely have a fashion boo-boo. like an exposed nipple or sthing like that.
3. cocaine.
4. be pressured into doing something i really really don't want to.
5. give up chocolate!
6. turn lesbo. i mean i'm not a homophobic or anything, i just personally wouldn't.
7. turn my back on my convictions and shut my conscience up.
Seven things I do when I'm away from the public.
1. cry.
2. talk to the mirror. hey it's my therapy!
3. talk to God.
4. blog. ;)
5. write compositions that reveal my inner most desires.
6. look through all my old stuff and daydream for hours.
7. stare at every part of my body and start scrutinising.
Seven fav sentences/quotes.
1. OMGGM man.
2. babi punani.
3. "Hope is my anchor" -anonymous
4. "Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting a new world is born"- anais Nin
5. "Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love" - Albert Einstein ;)
6. "That Love is all there is, is all we know of Love." - Emily Dickinson
7. damn screwed up man. -Rebecca Chew! :)
Seven favourite songs from all time
1. Liz Phair - Why can't I?
2. Damien Rice & Lisa Hannigan - 9 Crimes
3. Joss Stone - Right to be wrong
4. Sheila on 7 - Berhenti Berharap
5. John Mayer - Daughters
6. Keane - Somewhere only we know
7. The Rocket Summer - So Much Love.
Seven things I'll make you wish you didn't do if you did.
1. Lose hope.
2. Go against everything you once stood for.
3. Discriminate others.
4. Forget where you "came from".
5. Hate your country.
6. Bad-mouth me OR my family
7. Give chocolate up ;)
Seven people to tag.
1. Jocelyn
2. Denise
3. Tiffany
4. Gillian
5. Melissa
6. Michelle Lee
7. Sara
Sountrack:- The Feeling - Sewn
p.s Does anyone love the sartorialist and style.com as much as i do? do tell. :)
Becky.
famileeeee
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
the convoy at KLIA which is only 1/3 of the family!:Dwhoever said spending time with family was boring hasn't met mine! ;)
soundtrack:- Sheryl Crow and Sting - Always by your side
"my yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away"
BecKy
the joke's on me
Sunday, August 19, 2007
"why did you lie?
i was afraid that i wasn't enough for you. that i wasn't pretty enough. or that i wasn't smart enough."
i just watched an episode of One Tree Hill. and in it, they had bout a month or so lef tto graduation which is actually where i am right now. there was this part where this girl said that even if she didn't admit it, she was actually gonna miss high school. goodness knows why, i started tearing and honestly i felt super silly. but in all seriousness, i know i'm gonna miss high school. i'm gonna miss the scribbled tables, the dark mornings, the gravelled road, the sucky canteen food. i'm gonna miss terrorising the teachers. i'm gonna miss walking towards the school gate thinking "thank God it's over". I'm gonna miss bitchy fights. but most of all, I'm gonna miss that sense of security i get whenever i walk towards school, the way i think to myself: this is MY school. it's that feeling of belonging to something which i think epitomises teenage life that i'm gonna miss. i know i'm gonna feel the exact same way when i enter college or go to uni but nothing beats high school. and i'm not letting anyone tell me any different.
"so do you still feel that you're not enough for me?
i don't think that feeling will ever go away. but i guess i'll just have to learn to deal with it."
Soundtrack:- Ingrid Michaelson - Masochist
"she says you're a masochist for falling for me"
Becky.
and then he said
Thursday, August 16, 2007
the past few days have been fantabulous! i've scored 2 As so far. which is really really good. :) oh oh and on saturday we had our school's curiculum day and guess who went? :D pelajar cemerlang sial. heh. anyhoo went to get my cert for being a prefect! awww. look how sweet they are. first they give us cool uniforms to go to school in, then the power and now a cert. *tear* goodness. on the same day we launcher our school's something Integrasi which is actually a band of different cultural instruments, brass instruments and the different races playing them. i have pictures!
that's the whole band! cool eh?
see what i mean? chinese playing the tabla, malay playing the chinese drums etc.
then the VIPs thought it looked fun so they decided to syiok sendiri also. ha ha. told you my school's cool! ;)
and then there's us! :D
so that's pretty much it. it was quite a long wait what with all the VIPs making their speech and stuff.OMGGM man. who knew someone could make such a long speech at some high school's curiculum day? i mean if it's the UN i totall get it but at a high school? i mean c'mon! ha ha. oh oh and i stood under the hot sun coz i was part of the barisan kehormat or something like that. i feel oh so cool right now! ha ha.
anyhoo. i went to SUnway LAgoon yesterday, in the rain, and had the time of my life. no pics thou. coz my cam was in the locker the whole time. i came back snifling with a slight fever but it was definitely worth it! ha ha. i am soooo going back there after SPM! hell yeah. woo hoo. heh. so i gtg. this post was as you've prob already guessed, completely pointless! and it's my 100th post!!!!!!! whopee. cool eh? 100 pure nonsensical rants. ahh. sheer bliss. k then.byeee. :D
p.s: it surprises me that you still know me so well. :)
Soundtrack:- let's go sailing - better off
Becky
overr.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
TRIALS ARE OVER!!!! yeee hoooo
Soundtrack: William Fitzsimmons - Passion Play
siau cha bo
Sunday, August 12, 2007
DENISE SIAU, I MISS YOUUU!!!! after my SPM we HAVE to go out. and makan. and ber-starbucks. and buli howard. and stare at Ian coz he makes weird jokes. and hang out all over again. i think ur camera misses me btw. ;) i noe mine does! :D see you in church 2moro k??!!! LOVE YA. and i dunno why i felt like writing this entry. heh. i bet you love me so much more now don't you!Soundtrack:- get cape. wear cape. fly - I spy
edit: damn it la. I WANNA GO FOR NATIONAL SERVICE!!!!!! babi man.
Becky
fashionably uninvited
Thursday, August 09, 2007
I have 7 papers to go! wheeee. then it's shopping, Lagoon, Melaka, skating, reading and more shopping! all these coz my aunt from England is back! yay! and my cousins are still super adorable. lolz. i don't actually have anything much to say. which probably explains the dip my visitors counter has taken in the past week! sorry la!!!! ai yooo. u don't expect me to have cool things to tell you about every other week right? i mean not like i've even written about anything cool but i'd like to think i do so amuse me! :)
OH YES OH YES!!!! my physics have improved!!!! YES YES YES! see mum, i DO have common sense after all. mum says physics is all about common sense so my 'C' in the past exam was because i lack common sense! but i actually do have common sense! hang on. brb.
i just made my mum tell me she's proud of me and my tremendous effort in Physics! heh. i have no shame. bwa ha ha. anyhoo i am getting something for my undying loyalty to the prefect's board with a certificate! wheee. which means i have to wake up at 7 on saturday to go to school. fine. not so excited after all.
i actually feel quite bored writing this post. maybe i should just let my blog die. No no no. what would you do without me kan? KAN? babi. lolz. anyway i gtg. i feel like writing for the merdeka thingy in The Star just to see whether they'll publish it. :D oh oh. i've bought my prom dress! from Warehouse! and i'm wayyy over the moon!!!!! :)
and this is why i love Grey's Anatomy. their characters say cool and super realistic things. like:
just because i don't want you doesn't mean i want you to want anyone else.
i rest my case.
Soundtrack: Modest Mouse - float on
Becky
of exams and fab indie music. :)
Thursday, August 02, 2007
i'm currently midway thru my trials. which means i can tick Physics, Add Math II, BM I n EngI off my list. which in all honesty is not a whole lot. I actually have moral tomorrow. which i DO intend on studying! heh. but... mum says she wants to go to Subang Parade. and Subang Parade has Rock Corner and Body Shop and MPH!!
Rock Corner sells THE best indie music collection around. honestly. they even have jazz music. in French!!! i wanna marry a french man la. lolz. oOo. there's this foreign exchange student in my school. and he's from France! ;) bwa ha ha. Body Shop has a whole new line too. umm some Nectarine and Plum thingy, and Peach!!! we got the nectarine and plum for KM. no wonder you've been smelling good lately! ;) MPH has the latest Vogue/Girlfriend/Dolly! wheeee. bliss.
anyhoo i've gtg peeps. all the above beckon. and boy oh boy, i just went to Tiff's blog. and that woman has an LV bag! noooooo. I WANT ONE TOO!!!!! wait sabar. after SPM. everything's coming in after SPM! i get a new laptop after SPM. i get a brand spanking new ipod after SPM. i get a raise in allowance after SPM. i get the whole box set of Grey's ANatomy after SPM! whopeeee. damn it. everything's after SPM! which coincidentally starts on my birthday! great! ;) byeeeee
p.s: i got this line off this cool song "tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again". ironic eh?
Soundtrack: Unkle Bob -Swan
Becky
