the joke's on me
Sunday, August 19, 2007
"why did you lie?
i was afraid that i wasn't enough for you. that i wasn't pretty enough. or that i wasn't smart enough."
i just watched an episode of One Tree Hill. and in it, they had bout a month or so lef tto graduation which is actually where i am right now. there was this part where this girl said that even if she didn't admit it, she was actually gonna miss high school. goodness knows why, i started tearing and honestly i felt super silly. but in all seriousness, i know i'm gonna miss high school. i'm gonna miss the scribbled tables, the dark mornings, the gravelled road, the sucky canteen food. i'm gonna miss terrorising the teachers. i'm gonna miss walking towards the school gate thinking "thank God it's over". I'm gonna miss bitchy fights. but most of all, I'm gonna miss that sense of security i get whenever i walk towards school, the way i think to myself: this is MY school. it's that feeling of belonging to something which i think epitomises teenage life that i'm gonna miss. i know i'm gonna feel the exact same way when i enter college or go to uni but nothing beats high school. and i'm not letting anyone tell me any different.
"so do you still feel that you're not enough for me?
i don't think that feeling will ever go away. but i guess i'll just have to learn to deal with it."
Soundtrack:- Ingrid Michaelson - Masochist
"she says you're a masochist for falling for me"
Becky.
