Saturday, March 31, 2007
That's it! i'm done for. i've reached then end. the very nadir of my failure has consumed me. i should just relocate to the North Pole. Make friends with all the salmon and polar bears. ask Santa whether he wants to adopt me. okay fine. i'm exaggerating.
The cause of this exaggeration is... well... i have writer's block! nooooo... this sucks. big time. seriously. i've been trying to look for a title. a muse, an inspiration that will hurl me into a world of words where fantastic stories will spill out of my fingertips. no such luck. yipee me! i've been looking literally everywhere. yesterday, when we went to KL, i searched everywhere for it. it. that something that will make me sigh or laugh at the complete irony or reflect. heck. noooo. nothing seemed inspiring enough. and to make it all the worse. i have an essay to hand up on monday. for the school's anthenaeum. GREAT!
wait. i think something's struck me. ooh ooh ooh. sheer bliss. but will it be as great as i think it will be? or will it just be some dumb try-hard essay about teenagers? well... we shall soon find out. fingers crossed my essay will be picked! ;)
Track of the seemingly uninspired entry:
Secondhand Serenade - Your Call
thinking she's found her inspiration.
BecKy
Thursday, March 29, 2007
School was pretty ok today. MASSIVE camwhoring. not like it's unusual. anyhoo, we had the Petaling district drama competition today. and it was pretty good. seriously. wayy better than what i actually expected. SMK Taman Sea's 3 feet under was really really good. and it won. which it totally deserved. ha ha. oh. 3 feet under's bout this dude. who's really selfish. and umm.. he get's this fortune cookie telling him he's gonna die. then he sees this fortune teller who's really funny and she confirms it and what not. anyway to cut a long story short, u know how when a person dies they're normally buried 6 feet under? well, this dude, well, it's kinda like his "old self" died and he became a new person. thus 3 feet under instead of the usual 6 feet. which is SUPER clever. kudos to the fantastic teacher who came up with the script. it was good. had comedy and touching parts all in 20 minutes.
and then there was this drama which had this nerd, Charlie in it. and boy was he GOOD. ha ha.seriously. he was super duper funny. nt in a lame kinda way but in a funny way. emmm... u get what i mean la. lolz. anyhoo. i gtg. b4 u go, i've got sum1 i want u to meet.
meet my friend, J.D a.k.a Jack Daniels.;)
Track of the entry:
Counting Crows - Accidentally in love
BecKy
Monday, March 26, 2007
i feel stupid. so does pee. no wonder we're so good friends.
Labels: better than random
it's more than being random
i skipped school. THANK GOD. with permission of course. see, competition was on saturday,sunday, today and tomorrow. making it 4 very gruesome tiring days. even if i'm only playing on both of those days. ANYHOO. the SEA games champ in one of the events was around and oh, oh, oh he oozes coolness. as in seriously. you should see the way he plays. ahhh. he has long hair and my mom actually thought he was a girl with a moustache. massive potong. ha ha
anyhoo. today's one of those days where i set goals for myself like trying to finish one chapter of add math or such and fail to achieve coz i'm too preoccupied with my laptop. and my camera. they're both superbly entertaining. heh heh.
i do not actually know why i'm posting this but coz my blog's pretty dead so i thought i'd "revive" it. AH AH AH!!! INTERACT I.U is this sunday! HALLELUJAH!! my absolutely boring life just got interesting. heh heh. i'm super excited. but Pee's not. she's super stressed. so is Brenda. and Leonard. and JoJo and Wei Yan seems like she's stressed too. hmmmm... lolz.
and another totally exciting bangga-fying thing. Amount of people who caci me on my tagboard so far: 2! wheepeee. lolz. seriously. my actually boring life is infact interesting enough for someone to b xpuas with me. sweet bliss. ha ha. which reminds me. there was someone at the competition yesterday whose name was Bliss. ha ha. and the Koreans are super sepet. i mean i thought Yew Tian was sepet. brings sepet to a whole new level. they were quite adorable thou. unlike Yew Tian. wahhahahahahahahaha. and super funny too. but Yew Tian's quite funny also la. one Korean dude wore a shirt that went: Send me your nude pictures. i'll review them for you. which was pretty random. ha ha.
Track of the Entry:
Jennifer Hudson - I love you i do
BEcKy
Labels: better than random
3rd time's definitely no charm.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
i've been diagnosed. with the disease of the worst kind. but i won't tell u. eventhou it's running thru my very nerves. funny eh? how it bites you right where it really hurts? it's the 3rd time. the 3rd! well they say 3rd time's a charm. how wrong that ass was. oh well.. wat's life without feeling bummed and making mistakes rite?
Labels: emo
adorable-waste-your-time-thingies part 4
Monday, March 19, 2007
I've been tagged again!! woo hoo. i feel soooo emm.. tagged. heh heh. ANYHOO... tagging crime commited by
Christy.
Name one person who made you smile last night.Snow Patrol frontman Gary Lightbody and FOB's Pete Wentz. oh how i swooned. :)
What were you doing at 8.00 this morning?Standing like some bloody statue whilst everyone else was sitting down during assembly. dumb green uni.
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?walking back with Lim, Keith and Sathish. oOo. and getting Lim to act as my bf to "show" this sum1 who apparently cycles by my house. to emm... i honestly don't know. heh heh.
What was something that happened to you in 2006?
went absolutely koo koo in 4 Cekap. bitched all day long to Pee and Nit. connected, lost touch than reconnected stronger than ever with Gillian. better than a Digi ad siut. :P oh and i experienced my fairytale romance even if it was only for 2 days.
What is the last thing you said aloud?Kak, u sudah makan ah? :)
How many different drinks did you drink today?so far 3 -water, Coke and the canteen's yummy Milo ais. don't ask why!
What colour is your hairbrush?purple and white.
What was the last thing you paid for?Cornetto's Drumstick in Chocolate Concerto. a pretty good companion when walking home with the wind in your hair!
Where have you been last night?emm. the toilet! didn't go out for dinner. uncles came over instead.
What color is your front door?off white which was probably white in the first place. ha ha. adds to the "vintage"-ness of the hse which is oh so hot right now!;)
Where do you keep your change?everywhere. seriously. i have coins in my pencilbox, schoolbag, in every handbag, all around the house and my wallet!:)
What was the weather like today?oh oh oh. it was absolutely ADORABLE. it was windy the whole day. as in NOT HOT! no sun to scare the daylights outta us. pun intended. it was absolutely fabulous darling.
What is the best ice-cream flavour?Rocky Road or sumthin like that from Ben & Jerry's! HEAVEN! umm.. Very Berry Strawberry from Baskin is enough to fulfill all your strawberry cravings. yummmmmmm... drool....
What is something you are excited about?Interact i.u! heh heh. all because i have a fantabulous dress and a SUPER DUPER HOT date. i kid. Lim's my date. ha ha. but my dress is still FANTABULOUS! i love Zara! :)
Do you want to cut your hair?
actually i do. cut it shoulder length with really choppy layers. or do a pixie haircut. long hair is soo over-rated. but i don't think i will thou. i contradict even myself. :P
Are you over the age of 25?considering the manner in which i have been answering this tag, no. :)
Do you talk a lot? that's not even legit. the cows would've arrived home, slept, eaten enough grass to fill their 4 stomachs and go out for a walk again and i'd still b talking. yup, i'm THAT good! ;)
Do you watch the O.C?i'm more of a OTH, Grey's Anatomy and Prison Break kinda girl.
Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
Nope.
Do you anyone named Steven?
yup. His daughter just got married. cool eh?
Do you make up your own words?Perve-tastic - fantasticly perve worthy. lol.
Are you typically a jealous person?show me one girl who isn't and i'll show you a pig who flies! :)
Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "A":Aaron
Name a friend who's name starts with the letter "K":
Kent Yoong. d stupid chicken rice man/construction site worker.
Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
Timothy Boaz Koh I-Wei.
What did the last message you received say?
Nitemares not dreams...hahaha...sleep well 2nite...^-^ *Tim Boaz*
Do you chew on your straw?
sadly i do.
Do you have curly hair?nope.
Where is the next place you're going?
Plaza Dance Academy. ballet.
Who is the rudest person in your life?
i don't necessarilly think there's actually one. everyone's rude once in a while rite?
What is the last thing you ate?
a plum.
Is marriage in your future?well... if Mr Right comes along.... or Gary Lightbody...or Pete Wentz...
What is the best movie you've seen in the last 2 weeks?Grease. summer loving happened so fast... laa dee daa
IS there anyone you like right now?
sadly. and i reallly mean sadly. there is.
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When was the last time you did the dishes. be honestYesterday. honest!
Are you currently depressed?nope. besides. Jesus, chocolate, best friends and music cure almost anything!
Why did you answer and post this survey?because i love the wasy surveys reveal who you are in a funny way. besides, it's an adorable-waste-your-time-thingie. :)
Tag 5 people who would do this survey.
Denise Siauchabo. Tiff Leong. G Ling. Hannah Pee. Michelle Lee.
Track of the entry:
New Radicals - You get what you give.
"adorably" wasting her time,
Becky
Labels: adorable-waste-your-time thingies
vulnerably
Saturday, March 10, 2007
i don't see much. nt from this window of mine anyway. as i stare out of the tinted piece of glass, i notice my reflection. it looks pretty okay. from the outside at least. i look pretty awkward. with my black rimmed glasses and a flower in my hair. oooh. not forgetting the Gap tee.
then it strikes me. so this is what the world sees eh? nothing particulalrly interesting. it's not like i have 3 eyes or a nose as big as an elephants. thou i do tend to flare when i laugh. heh heh. then that song comes on. perfect timing. the one bout how reflections deceive and stuff. great.
so. does my reflection deceive who i really am inside? what i really feel? i mean. it's not unusual to feel this way is it. everyone does it. portray a certain character. one that defies and contradicts every cell inside their body. blatantly doing things, ignoring the screaming and tussling conscience inside.
but then again. should we reveal who we truly are and risk vulnerability? oily hair, dirt under fingernails and all? i often wonder whether it'd be a good idea to one day stand on a stage, imperfections and all, and let the crowd judge and scrutinise me. because as sadistic as it sounds, then i wouldn't have to wear a mask anymore. see, the reason we wear these masks are to avoid stares oozing with scrutiny and judgemental insults.but once that's over and done with, we need not care about the stares and jeers anymore. sure, you and your family are all that really matters. you know how when you've got trouble with your friends when you were little your mum would kinda go, nvm la girl/boy, mummy friend you enough d. and that'd make your day. week even.
then we grow up. worrying about self-reputation, peer pressure and what the world expects of us. honestly speaking, i hate being vulnerable. it makes you feel like some lab experiment for the world to study and come to it's own conclusions. you literally feel the callipers poking at you, looking into your every nook and cranny, searching for more embarassing secrets to reveal.
actually i think i'll go look for my mum right now. let her know how i'm feeling. listen to her say those exact words about how she'll be my friend no matter what. even if it makes me feel better for only a minute. because then, even if the world gets too depressing, for those precious 60 seconds, the world might not seem like such a bad place after all.
The track that made me feel vulnerable:
Christina Aguillera - reflections
Vulnerably,
BecKy
Labels: emo
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Thursday, March 08, 2007
sometimes people try too hard.
the fragile limit
Saturday, March 03, 2007
why do we play games? as in emotional games. we toy with the mind and emotions as if it as just another thing. the incomparable impact it has on that delicate little thing we take for granted is beyond what we know. yet we still play them. stretching their fragile limit everytime we take it one step further. u know, we really shouldn't. coz you never know when that fragile limit might break.
Track of the fragile limit:
Dishwalla - Candleburn
someday my limit just might break,
BecKy
beneath the onion layers
Thursday, March 01, 2007
realized i haven't done those adorable-waste-your-time kinda thingies in a while. BUT since i've been "layered" by
Dee and
Pee, here goes...
LAYER 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name : Rebecca Chew a.k.a BabyBecky
Birth Date : 12th November 1991 (now u HAVE to buy me a present!;) )
Current Status : being single rocks.
Eye Colour : brown-black
Hair Colour : brown-black
Right of lefty : Righty
LAYER 2 : ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage : i look like a malay, speak like a chinese and eat like an indian. saw?!Malaysia Boleh siut.but in all honesty. i'm Chinese + Indian. heh.
My Fears : Nit's hutan hujan tropika.
My weeknesses : chocolate covered anything.
My Perfect Pizza : heaps of cheeeeeeese, pineapple, green peppers and those red chili flakes that only Domino serve. see Zam, i support Domino's k?;)
LAYER 3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My thoughts first waking up : Rain's song nt loud enough la!( referring to Rain as my alarm signal! heh)
My bedtime : 11pm which funnily made me sleepier than if i were to sleep later.
My most missed memory : Singapore '06
LAYER 4 : MY PICK
Pepsi or coke : coke (pepsi tastes like the watered-down version anyways)
McDonald's or Burger kings : Happy Meal =D
Single or grouped dates : as long as it's a date. hehehehehehhehehehehehe
Adidas or Nike : adidas
Tea or Nestea : Starbucks Passion Tea. ooh ooh ooh..
Chocolate or Vanilla : is that even a legal question? CHOCOLATE la. like Duh!
Cappuccino or Coffee : Starbuck's Mocha Frap with whipped cream and chocolate sauce. instant heaven!
LAYER 5 : DO YOU...
Smoke : obviously not.
Curse : i absolutely bloody *&%$ing do! ;)
Take a shower : heh heh. yess. and no. wheeeee.
Have a crush : i'm more of an infatuation kinda girl! ;) terrorist boyy. wahahahha
Think you've been in love : i mean. how DO you define love?? hmmm.. ( idea for nxt blog post!)
Go to school : yup. why do you think my IQ level went down a 100?
Want to get married : someday......
Believe in yourself : if i don't. who else will?
Think your a health freak : with the amount of oily foods and chocolate i eat. please. i'm wayy above being a health freak. ;) eat healthy,exercise daily, Die anyway!
LAYER 6 : IN THE PAST
Drank alcohol : hehehehehhehehehehehehe. i totally encourage underage drinking! :D
Gone to the mall : malls are my second home la.
Been on stage : yup. and i absolutely ADORE it!
Eaten sushi : who hasn't?
Dyed your hair : yup. i'm no hair virgin! hehe
LAYER 7 : HAVE YOU EVER...
Played a stripping game : no. thinking of playing tomorrow!;)
Changed who you were to fit in : unconciously maybe. conciously, no.
LAYER 8 : AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To be married : if Logan from Gilmore Girls asked, i'd get married in a tomorrow. so i'd say 16! ;)
LAYER 9 : IN A GUY..
Best eye colour : Hazel, blue and green. ahhhh....
Best hair colour : definitely dark brown. with curls. swoon...
Short hair or long hair : anything.
LAYER 10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A minute ago : replying jewin and talking to Gillian. Jewin asked me whether i've ever had an orgasm, leaving me speechless.
Hour ago : sitting in Pn. Khairiah's tuition, talking to Lim,Christy,Elfeera and Nurul bout i.u.
4.5 hours ago : sleeping
1 month ago : panicking bout Valentine's. :D
Year ago : having the time of my life in Johor and 4 Cekap.
LAYER 11 : FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : Chocolate, the Family, my REAL family, besties and ooooo.. Italian Boys with curly hair!
I feel : happy, horny, full. ;)
I hate : whiny people.
I hide : what i really feel inside.
I miss : Gillian!!
I need : money.time.food.
LAYER 12 : TAG 5 PEOPLE
One : Gillian(eventhou her blog's preeeety dead)
Two : Zek
Three : Sue Ann
Four : Wei Yan
Five : Sandy
track of the onion layers:
Katherine Mcphee - Over the rainbow.
the one with the massive layers,
BecKy
Labels: adorable-waste-your-time thingies